Now that I am here
I don’t know what to say
Like every single word
Has gotten in the way
I know I really hurt you
I can’t deal with that sight
Even though it hurt us so bad,
I never meant to fight.
I want to hold you close
As close to me as my clothes
I want to hear you breathe
And speak to me of your woes.
I need to feel you in my life
I need you next to me
I need to be holding on to you
To even begin to breathe…
Never doubt that through it all
These flowery words mean nothing
But my heart is all for you
And that surely means something.
I know words can’t fix it all
Or even begin to relieve the pain
But I hope that by holding you
I can at least let you feel my rain…
I can’t look up at the stars again
And not think of your eyes
Green beauty, I reminisce
When I hold you I cannot die…
I hope this reaches you
Deeper than my voice can go
Or maybe for you to hear these words
From my lips even though
In the end, my words are nothing,
But apology, whispered to you
And I won’t give it up
Until you see that too.
From the deepest regions of my soul
Once again, from my heart,
I love you dearly,
And I wish never to part.